Classes are done!

Well, I am done with classes. I had my last final this morning and my first freak-out this afternoon. Now that I am done with classes, I don't know where I am going. As much as I love children and teaching, I am restless. I don't know if that is what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I am really good at being a student, like really good. I am great at studying and memorizing. I write papers in a matter of mere hours. I have a great GPA. I test like it is my job. And I am good at my job.

But now, it is all done. And I don't know what I am doing. Especially because I have discovered that I pretty much can't pay off my student loans in less then 10 years. So I have two degrees that I am not sure I want to use, $60,000 in loans, and a want to start a family in not too long. What is a girl to do?

4 weeks and counting

I officially have 4 weeks and then finals until I am out of the class part of my college education. On one hand, I am WAHOOOOing inside. On the other I am dreading all of the things that I need to accomplish in that amount of time.

I have decided that I will really miss being a college student. I love learning and exploring. I know that I can continue doing those things, but it will be at a different capacity. I wish I could go from college student to stay-at-home girlfriend, but Andrew didn't think that was a good idea. (Haha)

It is supposed to rain tomorrow and I am kind of pumped. I love it when it rains, granted I don't have to go anywhere in it. I plan on spending my rainy day watching Netflix and doing homework, namely: 1) finishing a lesson plan on advertising appeals that I have to teach soon, 2) putting my English portfolio together, and 3) writing a paper about my philosophy about teaching middle school. I bet you are all very jealous of my life!

Easter was good. Andrew and I weren't able to spend time with his grandma because he didn't feel good, but we went and visited my family. We played Mexican Train and had a grand old time.

Now, I should probably get back to listening to my teacher. He is rambling about a unit plan we have to write in groups.

The Slide to the End

I officially have 5 weeks and finals left until I am all done with classes...forever! In one sense, I just want everything to be done. I am over papers, reading articles, writing lesson plans, putting portfolios together and group projects. In another sense, I have to buckle down and make sure my senioritis doesn't affect all of the big projects I have due soon.

I have come to the realization that I don't really know what to do with my life after student teaching. There isn't a huge calling for teachers, so I'm worried about finding a job and having to be an adult. I guess it is just something I will take one step at a time.

This weekend Andrew and I toured the townhouse we'll be moving into in a month and a half and we bought a giant comfy sofa! That is the part of growing up that I enjoy. I will finally have a place of my own that I can decorate. No more second-hand 70's flowered couches and random chairs from our parent's basement. No more sleeping on the floor (I don't have a bed). No more cleaning up after anyone except Andrew, who I can yell at if need be haha. I can finally have a cool place of my (and Andrew's) own!

Money issues

Well, as a college student, money is hard to come by. Sure, the bank is nice enough to lend me tens of thousands of dollars every year, but one day I will have to pay if back double-fold. While in college, I do not hold a job because I figure it is enough that I spend 20 hours in class along with about 20 hours of additional homework. Pile on that dance rehearsal and spending time with my family and boyfriend (along with some procrastination) and I don't have much time to find a part-time job that will barely cover my rent every month.

I depend on my loans for school, a roof over my head, food, gas money (driving 2 1/2 hours almost every weekend takes a toll!) clothes, and some entertainment. College is needed in order to get a good job these days, especially because I want to be a teacher. I don't understand why college has to be so expensive if it is such a needed step in the education process. Jobs can be found without a college degree, but most cannot support a family.

I do get curious sometimes where all of this money goes that I pay to the school. Not only do I have to pay $3000 per semester for classes, I also have to buy books for the classes, sometimes spending up to $600 for textbooks. So what does the tuition pay for? Class room space? Over priced professors? The desks we sit in? I just don't understand it!

I am on a sort of rant, but at the moment, I have enough money to pay for January rent, gas to get back to school, and maybe 1 or 2 textbooks. I have already gone into debt with my parents for some Christmas presents. All in all, I live these few months in fear of spending my last dollar.

Well, rant over. This weekend we were thrifty enough to get a free Papa Murphy's pizza, Arby's lunch for $6 for the both of us, and all the free movies we could watch on Netflix. Christmas is my favorite time of year and I will be spending my next couple of days baking because I love to bake and it is free and keeps me occupied!